When you’re hurting, I think it can be easy at times to allow your world to fade into gray. And that’s okay: sometimes, you have to do whatever it takes to get through whatever trial you’re facing.
Typically, I haven’t had the “luxury” of taking the time to process whatever grief or anger a situation has caused. This time, I made sure to go through that process. I’ll be honest, it was hard as hell and it pulled me way out of my comfort zone, but it was probably a lot healthier to allow myself to heal and gain wisdom from the experience.
Now, I don’t only see what *I* coulda/woulda/shoulda done differently: I see his mistakes and flaws too, and I understand how his behavior impacted my feelings instead of just evaluating those feelings in a vaccum. Interactions since then have made me realize that in all reality, it is very possible that I actually dodged a bullet.
It took longer than I expected, but the world seems to have its color back now. I’m excited about the year to come, and I’m ready to get started on these 2018 goals. The past six weeks or so have been a great reminder that there really is a light at the end of the tunnel–even when we can’t always see it in the midst of a storm.