When I Had to Admit I Loved You (But Not To You)

10/29/2018

For the first time in years,

I caught myself praying.

Not for the Lord to help me

Possess, enchant, or enthrall you,

No.

I did not ask

That you fall hotly, madly, irrevocably

In love with me,

Though I imagine that would

Feel something like a warm rain

Kissing the dry, hard earth

During my favorite spring thunderstorms

In our beloved home state.

No, love.

I prayed that you would

Be granted strength

That you would find peace

That your tired body

Would experience true healing

And that your heart

Would no longer cry out

In agony

At the mere memory

Of her face.

-Sarah Clinton

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